There are probably a million and three hundred thousand reasons why people stay single, but here’s one:
It wasn’t leftover feelings from previous heartbreaks, it wasn’t because everything and everyone reminded me of that one person who broke my heart five years ago. It’s not really about that ex that I had my first kiss with. Not exactly because of the past.
It’s because I already found someone that I wanna be with, but I can’t be with them.
Sometimes it’s because your feelings aren’t reciprocated, sometimes it’s just impossible in all the ways that you can think of, sometimes you’re just not ‘the one’.
I might want to fall back into the familiar things, run back to the one that once made me whole, run back to the one that once made me happy, but only because it’s the only thing I know. We’ve done it before, why not do it again? It was like setting myself up for failure.
I do not want to run backward, I want you. I know I want you, but I can’t have you.
It’s not as easy to ‘move on’ from something that you’ve never had. The ‘what ifs’ will haunt you till there’s nothing left of you for the next person.
I feel empty.
So that is why people stay single. At least for me.