sometimes i look in the mirror and don’t see myself as a good person. i hurt myself, i shut everyone out when they get too close, sometimes i think i’m also selfish for taking care of my own heart.
it hurts me to think that someone will look at me straight in the eyes and won’t see me as a good friend, a good partner, a good companion, and sometimes what hurts the most is that someone will never see me as their potential wife.
or maybe i see that as myself.
i hate myself. i hate feeling like i want to rip out my skin and live in someone else’s or try living in another one’s shoe just to know how it feels like even if its not in the same size. even if the 2 size down will hurt my foot but i wouldn’t care either, what do i care about myself.
somedays i feel like taking care of myself, somedays i don’t and i just give up all over again and its tiring and i feel like i’m breaking but i don’t know what is left of me to break. i break myself and i’m going to hurt someone else too and that is exactly what i hate the most about me. when will this end.