I have learnt to speak less about you
I can’t even remember the last time I said your name out loud
Or telling of how sad I am now that you’re not around
It is the mind that is harder to trick
I can’t help thinking of you everyday when I’m having a cup of coffee
Or the time someone mentioned of the cold weather that I’m reminded of how much you like it
Everytime I look at my cat and of it purring as I rubbed under it’s neck
These trivial things are there to reminisce
How is it that I still hope for you?
Just like that a part of the wall I built crumbled
Instantly I become miserable
What did I do wrong?
Should I call you and ask?
Were the questions left unattended as I try to trick my heart into forgetting you once more
Slowly I started to mend the fallen bricks one by one
Level by level
Hoping that the next time I think of you it’ll hold still
Slowly and surely
I will forget