The only way you know
March 7, 2017 in Dan lain-lain
Trust me. I’m more disappointed in myself than I am in you. State of our nation is quite unsettling, but the only thing occupying my heart is you. Not her.
It’s rather peculiar. This thing called being in love. Or its novel idea.
I’ll wait until you needed me again.
To hear the words I love you and sayang by that seductive voice of yours. Making me quiver with excitement, wet from anticipation, and hard with imagined pleasure.
Until then. I shall wait until you need me again.
That’s the only way you know how to love.
Reality
December 23, 2016 in Uncategorized
My reality, is where my minds sets it to be.
But,
What good is fantasy,
If,
It always brought me back to ‘a you and me’.
Where,
We were never happy.
When,
We were never meant to be.
Mid-Noon Brawl
September 10, 2016 in 50/50 Second Cycle
Heavenly concoction,
of golden-red tint.
Emptied from your heart,
to the chambers of mine.
To find dominion,
To suppress my liberty.
So, they fought and feud.
Two bloodlines, one lycan soul.
Of Nosferatu, Of Witches,
The Kings, The Queens.
But, together; they rule,
as Vile Knights of my nights.
애아르
Are you a writer? Or a reader?
September 3, 2016 in Poetry/Puisi
A writer writes, from a deep desolate place;
and only he could be him.
A reader meanwhile, reads from a mysterious place;
and he could be her, or anything else in between.
Bound and gagged
August 30, 2016 in Uncategorized
You made me your sole prisoner today.
Bound me. Gagged me.
In my own bed, without my knowing.
Difficult.
But, with persistence; escaped I did.
Not-without some harsh flashbacks.
Into the past I’ve always overlooked;
Tried hard to bury.
Memories and dreams are like that. Elusive and ever emotive.
I escaped today. This morning.
I could blame it on the rainy weather. Which somehow my mind has associated with your being.
But what about the other 364 days in this past year alone?
If not counting the days before?
Who could I have blamed?
For making my heart, mind, and body, prisoner of my own thoughts before? Of my own being?
Before you?
Too slightly skewed in the distribution to be included under the definition of ‘normal’
August 26, 2016 in Uncategorized
I saw it. Accidentally.
Bore witness to it. That thing you have vehemently decided that was not a part of you.
I have now seen it for myself. That few stolen moment of happiness. Yeah. You were happy. You’re denying it now, (and to be honest you’ve always rejected this part of yourself, and will most probably deny it too were you confronted on the fact) but make no mistake.
You were happy there. Then.
It need not be vocalised by your partner. Or even by yourself. Your satisfied face, most probably in the midst of nirvana; betrayed you. To be honest; his, too.
But to you, the mere act of making him happy is feminine-like. None all too masculine for your taste. Although his moaning were all that you craved in that exact point in time. Made your love organ harder than it possibly could.
All in all though, too slightly skewed in the distribution to be included under your definition of ‘normal’.
I hope you’d accept yourself just as I have knowingly embraced you for all these while.
You’re bi. Or maybe even pansexual. To hell with the labels.
Point is. You love to playfully stroke and lick a guy’s frenulum just as much as you’d caress a girl’s virgin-dual-layered-lips.
Whose definition of normal are we even contending now?
What’s important, is only your own!
😉
Dunia Aku Dunia Kamu
August 24, 2016 in Poetry/Puisi
Dunia kamu,
Paksinya bukan aku.
Itu, aku tahu.
Bisa kamu tahu?
Dunia aku,
Hanya ada kamu.
Where do I sit in the deepest corner of your heart?
August 22, 2016 in Poetry/Puisi
Where do I sit in the deepest corner of your heart?
Would it even be there if I were to search for it?
Or, would I have to search high and low; only to find out that you don’t have a heart?
No. Not a heart. Nothing at all.
At the place where the said viscera should be; there is emptiness instead, as dark and as hollow as a black hole would be.