April 12, 2019 in Poetry/Puisi
To my love, my baby, my heartbreaker, my destroyer
Does she make you feel whole?
or does she make you feel good about yourself?
Does she kiss you goodnight like you deserve it?
when the world knows you actually don’t deserve it.
Does she cry in the middle of the night
because she is too scared of losing you?
Does she overthink about you and her
because you little coward, indecisive prick.
Does she blame herself more than once
because you make her feel worthless.
To your lover, your kryptonite, your other
half, to the one I should apologise
Does he make you feel special like
you’re the only one in his mind?
Does he tell you he loves you every night
before he sleeps?
Does he call you “baby” or “sayang”
And I still wonder which one is better.
Does he let you in his world and let you
wander around until you finally feel lost?
Does he ever make you feel bad after you
confronted him about something,
you know you’re damn right about.
Oh honey I wish I can tell you the things that you have to know before it gets more complicated but im sorry that I still don’t have the courage to let you know about what happened. Maybe one day I’ll tell you or maybe I won’t. Whatever it is please know that this is an apology note from me to you.
April 7, 2019 in Poetry/Puisi
Maybe one day I can stop fantasizing about us being together and actually focus on myself more rather than finding another
Because truth have been told my world would not be the same again
Either with you being an option or even my main
I screwed up big time so now there is nothing left
If you hadn’t leave first, maybe I would have
Bad timing or good timing
Was not even a point that should be accused
For what I have known my love
You will always have a place in my heart
Oh, my first real love
How can I refused?