I keep falling more in love with you every day.
Last night, I dreamt that I lost you and I woke up to a feeling of utter dread in the pit of my stomach. I’ve been too dependent on you that I can’t imagine a future where there’s no us. I don’t show it but I appreciate all the things that you do for me. The long hours you wait in the car while I’m attending lectures. The exhausting traffic you go through every day to send and pick me up from school. Your patience in dealing with my emotional outbursts and random cravings for boba and ice cream. The pranks you pull to put a smile on my face. How you don’t hit me back even when I hurt you. How you were not even a bit mad when I spilled hot chocolate all over your iPad, brand new phone and your expensive watch your dad gave you. I will never forget how you reacted. You were so calm and patient and after helping me clean up the mess, you hugged me so tight while I was in tears, waves of guilt crashing down on me. That was the moment I want you in my life. I love you. I’ve never been more sure of anything in my life until you. Falling asleep in your arms is what I look forward to as I go through my day and waking up to the sound of your breathing and gentle snores is what I want to start my day.
It’s still a mystery to me on why you fell for me and the insecurities will always be buried deep in the back of my head. But until then, I’ll forever be grateful for all the time we’ve spent together and if I could go back, I would do it all over again and I wouldn’t change a thing.