I want someone who wants to be with me.
Not someone who needs me.
Not someone who uses me.
Because I have no fight in me. Whether in friendship or relationship.
My mom always taught me, “they will go if they want to go. you can’t force them to stay”
So, I really have no fight in me.
If you want to go, go.
I never begged anyone to stay.
In fact, I always push people away.
Because that’s what I am.
If they really want to be with me, they will stay.
Even though I push them, they will try to stay.
I don’t believe in forever too.
Maybe I have trust issues.
Maybe that’s just how this world works.
Even this world is not forever.
So how am I supposed to believe in forever?