I’m writing to remember today. You were such a gentleman, holding open doors and all. You asked me about myself like you genuinely wanted to know. You asked questions to listen, not to respond. You really listened to me. You heard me. I felt comfortable with you, safe even. Like I could trust you with […]
farewell passage to the love wind
“If I had the courage to convey these feeling, I can say goodbye to all those painful nights. I put all my wishes into it, wish my love, so give me the power to take that first step.” But what kind of first step would it be, I have always wondered it too. The first […]
The Bus
Never liked them. I’m currently in my 3rd week of doing an internship in the big city. I swore myself to not ride the bus but it was the most cheapest n fastest transportation but it might not be the most time-efficient and safest one. My first experience was the worst, the bus was too […]
I Never Can Tell
—“Will you marry me ?” I remember how for the hundredth times he asked. “I am going to take care of you I promise,” He added. “You know I can’t,” I gently replied. He knew I would never agree to that but he asked anyway, hoping I would have second thoughts. “We are young. What’s […]
Preamble Depiction
I’m deeply invested in you. How can be this way I have no idea. My head is fully occupied with this incoming election. And family to put on top. Glad work at the office is manageable. But still as the clock turning, there’s you in some part of my head. I remember you want to […]
Little Dream of You
I haven’t even thought about you in a long time. I know now it’s because you were hiding in my dreams. It was a simple dream, which reminded me of Lara Jean’s lock screen. We were in a field of possibilities. You sat next to me as I lied down, our bodies touching ever so […]
Sambal Belacan
Pandang luar. Hujan. Cik Ati tengah drive. On the way rumah. Senyap. Tengok skrin fon. Gelap. “Nanti nak singgah kedai. Nak beli beg.” Cik Ati bagitahu. “Okay.” “Eh, nak dekat pukul 2 dah. Tak jadi lah singgah. Balik teruslah ye. Belum solat zuhur lagi ni. Nanti terlepas. Tak terlepas, tapi lewatlah.” “Okay.” Senyum. Kat luar […]
Guardian Angels.
Humans and angels have walked side by side for thousands of years. Behind each great feat were guardian angels, guiding and protecting their humans at all costs. They can be quite the conversationalists once they warm up to you, that is if you could see them at all. I was fortunate enough to be given […]
maybe that’s how it is
It’s like rainfalls, you know. The trickling of droplets on the roof provides you with a soft lullaby as a huge sense of calmness envelopes you slowly, making you feel safe and sound. The quiet chattering of insects indulging themselves in the rain gives you the assurance that the rain is full of happiness and […]
[KAU MASIH BERTANYA?]
Kau masih bertanya kenapa aku tidak menyukainya? Aku tidak suka melihat tatapan dia kepadaku, apa aku salah? Aku tidak suka saat dia melebarkan senyuman dihadapanku, apa aku salah?? Lagi lagi aku tidak suka saat dia menebak-nebak apa yg kurasakan. Sungguh itu hal yg memuakkan. Dia merasa seolah-olah tau semua yg kutau. Itu hal yg paling […]
The Run
Sam heard no other sound but the crunching of leaves underneath his feet, his own breathing, and the shouting from behind him. He was tired, but he had to keep running. All around him were rows and rows of trees and bushes. If it wasn’t for the moonlight, he would not be able to see […]
Lost in the Wasteland
Every choices have their own pro and cons, advantages and disadvantages. Some are obvious, some are not. It feels good when you made a good choice, securing your own path. Sometimes you think you have made a good decision, but its not. Sometimes you are confused, thus need some thoughts and discussion with someone you […]
I never did enough nor too much and received enough nor too much.
“I had friendships that I hold on to for years and sometimes I do think I ruined them all. I had one friend, around 2014, we were, inseparable. She took care of me and I took care of her; well mostly she did, we went out a lot and there were so many great conversations […]
Did I pray too much?
I dreamed u talked to me for the second time now since we met at our friend’s 18th birthday last Friday. I rarely saw u in my dream ever since we left school, maybe once or twice, but never twice in a row. As much as I don’t want to believe that the person we […]
Tuhan tak marah aku kan?
These lately i’ve been thinking a lot about marriage. About me wanna get married. I have the urge of getting into marriage phase. Or maybe…. This is just a phase..? Or maybe because i saw people around me slowly upgrading their status from single to married, Then i wanted to changes my status too. I’m […]