Defensive according to Mr. Google was ” very anxious to challenge or avoid critism ” “Always put others first.” My mom used to say that, she was worried that I might not make friends or I was too bold for the world. Sadly there’s a negative side of it, I became soft. In an argument, […]
What is Jodoh?
I don’t know where to start. I have never been in love, well not really but more to one-sided love. Some says “It will come one day, you’re special. The last one are always for the best.” Some says “Put some effort in it, you cant just wait around for it to pop-up” Some says […]
Us Vs The World (2013)
Thinking what might you do to get money or what might you do to change your world. Honestly I can’t think of anything for both questions. I’m 21 & still haven’t accomplished anything.Everyday i think what do i wanna do in my life, what should i do for my life? But in the end, my […]
Love letters to you (part 1)
It was a Sunday afternoon. I was listening to Khalid when he called me to come to bed. I was doing my work and I know I shouldn’t but I just couldn’t resist joining him. His body felt so warm pressed up against me, his hands on the small of my back, his breath on […]
four seasons
She loved him and never recovered. He came for a season and left when the day becomes warmer. And she ate ice-cream under the sun alone, while staring at smaller kids on bikes. She’s on a hand-me-down swimming suit, red and white, striped. She stared at the small vase in front of Mrs Fisher’s yard, […]
t o y
Her heart was broken in the morning. She gasps for air. Took a deep breath, and let it go. She looks puzzled for a good minute And realized she need to work. She can’t afford to breakdown now. Not in front of the office. So she went in. Fake a smile. Walk to the office […]
The good ones are always taken
I’m writing to remember today. You were such a gentleman, holding open doors and all. You asked me about myself like you genuinely wanted to know. You asked questions to listen, not to respond. You really listened to me. You heard me. I felt comfortable with you, safe even. Like I could trust you with […]
farewell passage to the love wind
“If I had the courage to convey these feeling, I can say goodbye to all those painful nights. I put all my wishes into it, wish my love, so give me the power to take that first step.” But what kind of first step would it be, I have always wondered it too. The first […]
The Bus
Never liked them. I’m currently in my 3rd week of doing an internship in the big city. I swore myself to not ride the bus but it was the most cheapest n fastest transportation but it might not be the most time-efficient and safest one. My first experience was the worst, the bus was too […]
I Never Can Tell
—“Will you marry me ?” I remember how for the hundredth times he asked. “I am going to take care of you I promise,” He added. “You know I can’t,” I gently replied. He knew I would never agree to that but he asked anyway, hoping I would have second thoughts. “We are young. What’s […]
Preamble Depiction
I’m deeply invested in you. How can be this way I have no idea. My head is fully occupied with this incoming election. And family to put on top. Glad work at the office is manageable. But still as the clock turning, there’s you in some part of my head. I remember you want to […]
Little Dream of You
I haven’t even thought about you in a long time. I know now it’s because you were hiding in my dreams. It was a simple dream, which reminded me of Lara Jean’s lock screen. We were in a field of possibilities. You sat next to me as I lied down, our bodies touching ever so […]
Sambal Belacan
Pandang luar. Hujan. Cik Ati tengah drive. On the way rumah. Senyap. Tengok skrin fon. Gelap. “Nanti nak singgah kedai. Nak beli beg.” Cik Ati bagitahu. “Okay.” “Eh, nak dekat pukul 2 dah. Tak jadi lah singgah. Balik teruslah ye. Belum solat zuhur lagi ni. Nanti terlepas. Tak terlepas, tapi lewatlah.” “Okay.” Senyum. Kat luar […]
Guardian Angels.
Humans and angels have walked side by side for thousands of years. Behind each great feat were guardian angels, guiding and protecting their humans at all costs. They can be quite the conversationalists once they warm up to you, that is if you could see them at all. I was fortunate enough to be given […]
maybe that’s how it is
It’s like rainfalls, you know. The trickling of droplets on the roof provides you with a soft lullaby as a huge sense of calmness envelopes you slowly, making you feel safe and sound. The quiet chattering of insects indulging themselves in the rain gives you the assurance that the rain is full of happiness and […]