Pekak. orang-orang ini tidak mendengarkanku apa orang-orang ini pekak atau aku yang wujud tanpa bunyi? tapi aku tak bisu aku bicara pakai huruf dan bunyi seperti mereka seperti manusia mustahil mereka tak mendengarnya kalaupun, aku bisu mereka itu yang buta! aku telah menangis di tepi mereka dengan esak yang kuat sampai mataku menyala merah saga […]
Away
have you ever felt like the world crashing down? have you ever felt like curse yourself down? for something that’s not your fault but you feel like it’s your fault anyway nothing is going your way so you push everyone away way way away further and further far away you can’t see them further […]
Almost Home
Maybe the road was too twisted, or could it be the ride that is too bumpy for us to hold on to? We made promises that are meant to be broken, we made love that was not passionate enough. I thought you were my forever, but you turned out to be my hardest goodbyes, I […]
yang sering kau dengar
+ catatan sebatas/seringkas hup seng dan teh hangat Perasaan itu memang sesuatu yang susah digambar. Palet warnanya juga variasi. Kenapa cuma guna satu kalau kamu bisa tumpahkan sekali semuanya biar menyatu. Bahagiamu, marahmu, sedihmu, nyamanmu, sayangmu, juga bencimu. Kadang… perasaan itu tidak meminta untuk difahami. Cukup sekadar memberi makan ikan emas yang sedang berenang dan […]
senja bersama
cahaya jingga merekah. membuat awan terlihat seperti pasir, butir-butir emas yang hangat. langit menghampar bagai laut. membiru dengan buih-buih awan. gumpalan awan berarak pelan-pelan bagai ombak menghempas bibir laut tanpa cemas. burung-burung mengibas sayap mereka laju. merasakan angin. kemudian, mendepang sayap tenang menikmati petang. bebas dan percaya diri. mereka dalam perjalanan pulang. sebatang ranting digigit […]
Permanent Passenger
We get on the ride without any maps or compass to guide us, we create our own ways and start the journey. It could be dangerous, but I feel safe sitting beside you as you take the wheel and bring us to somewhere new. We will watch every sunrise and sunset while I rest my […]
biar dia pergi
Hari ini, terkurung itu jadi yang paling aman, bertebar, jangan! merayau, tak hirau, berketurunan disengat, si jahat. Hari ini, menjauh itu jadi yang paling nyaman, berdekat-dekat, tak sadar, dah ke mana ditebar, ada yang bernisan, kerana kita tak ikut pesan. Hari ini, kita sudah tak saling bertatap, hanya berserah di bawah atap, doa di hujung […]
2nd of Ramadhan.
It’s been a while since I couldn’t remember the last time I was sitting alone breaking my fast, and unfortunately today, it happens again. Everybody is here but yet I’m alone. Out of the rainy windy moment, I’m breaking my fast alone. The messy dining table looks empty, the bright lamp seems dim. The heart […]
One
I miss you Yes, I do miss you. I miss our little argument, I miss your ranting, I miss your little problem, I miss your concern, I miss your hardwork to be a doctor, I miss giving you strength, I miss calming you, I miss giving you advice. Everytime I give myself a ‘short time’ […]
Sunshine
I draw the curtains open, unlock the window, let the sunlight in and kiss my bare skin softly. The trees are waving welcoming at me while the birds greet me with their cheerful chirping. I can feel the fresh breeze dancing through my hair, then I breathe it deep into my lungs. […]
Regretting
I do not want to hurt you anymore I do not want to be the one causing you sore I never want a farewell But I do not want to make your eyes swell, again Sorry for making you cry Maybe i should keep my distance from you forever I should keep this ship of […]
To Noah
When you feel stranded on a stranger’s land, Trust that, I’d be standing- there holding out my hand. When growing up feels too confusing, Turn to me, bud, for tales you’ll find amusing. When people say stuff, you wish you’d understand, no matter how rough, there’s nothing we can’t withstand. And when you have doubts, […]
Perempuan dalam Puisi
Perempuan dalam puisi, Yang hendaknya cuma punya kamu disisi, Kenapa masih tidak engkau mengerti, Cuma kasih dan masa dipinta, Tanpa terlihat meminta, Kerna bimbang di dusta . Sudah beberapa purnama, Malamnya tanpa gelak tawa, Hati sepi sayu rindukan kamu, Namun tiada ruang bertemu . Puisi ini buatmu, Perempuan itu kamu, Dan aku mahu […]
regrets
If I take my first step to you, will you be mine? Will we be together now? If I told you, I like you too, maybe I will not suffer from those heartbreaks that come after you. If you look at me again, maybe there is hope for us. And maybe, you are not my […]
she doesn’t need a knight in shining armor
« tw//suicide » she waits in the tower of misery, so immersed in the fantasies, with hair grown so long she can’t wait to see, the person that will ask her to let down her hair so s/he can climb up and make her happy. she peeks from her window every season, on her tiptoe […]