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You said you dah ada someone special and you dah start serious with her. How come you so sure with her? While dengan i last time you said tak nak commit, you nak have fun. Apa kurangnya i? 🙁 You said, i am your taste. You adore me. But why you’re not choosing me? Are […]


Do you still remember what is your gift on my 24th birthday? A kiss. I really love the gift. I love you. But now you’re not here with me. Why you leave me? What is not enough from me? Tell me why. I’m so desperate wanted you to stay with me. Iloveyou and imissyoualways. What […]

pet peeves.

so i have came across tweets about cleanliness and people’s attitude. and i could relate it to my daily observation too, which adds up to my pet peeves list. so they are; people who leave the dining table messy after they take their meals. they don’t even try to clean the leftovers dropped from their […]

Back, again.

Hey, I guess I’m back again. It’s a yearly kind of visit I guess. Things haven’t been much fun and all. I guess being here means that I need a certain form of escape. A venting point. I just finished reading a friend’s entry and I guess I should try it again. So, this is […]


I wrote this at 3 am on one of those nights where i couldn’t sleep. have you ever feel lonely? you have friends but there’s still an occupied space in your heart that’s still searching for something, or someone. a void. an unknown. you’re having trouble sleeping because it gives space for the monster in […]

Hi Ma

I finally have the courage to post. 31-07-2019 I went to work like always, I had a weird feeling. I told my friend that I’m coming home late that day. I came to work and get most of my tasks done. At 12.48pm, my phone rang and it was my brother : ”Can you leave […]


sometimes i look in the mirror and don’t see myself as a good person. i hurt myself, i shut everyone out when they get too close, sometimes i think i’m also selfish for taking care of my own heart. it hurts me to think that someone will look at me straight in the eyes and […]

10 things i know that hurt

Feeling sad for no apparent reason hurts 10 times more than having actual reasons to cry about because at least, you can cry your hearts out until you’re immune to the sadness. Feeling drained during an outing with friends suck when you’re supposed to or expected to be happy after months of not seeing each […]

Love Yourself

Reading back the old posts, it’s been a year. Last year I was struggling finding permanent job. This year, 2020, alhamdulillah. I was confirmed as a permanent staff, I’m engaged and I have bought a house. Yet all these successful things I have done. But yet I still failed to do this one thing. I […]


Ketika takbir berkumandang di pagi yang mulia Rasa hiba tiba di dada Apabila ku dilayar ke arungan rindu Menitip bayangan samar wajahmu Titisan air mata Pipi kemerahan menahan sebak yang tiba Mengubah raut wajah kirana ibu Hatinya menjerit dihanyut rindu Sesungguhnya cinta Tuhan pada umat-Nya itu mulia Qada’ dan qadar yang dijanjikan Maha Berkuasa Kadangkala […]

A Journey Of Happiness

When I asked “how are you?” over two cups of hot chocolate in our favorite cafe, You give me collections of sugar coated of “I am okay.” Don’t get me wrong, I would love to hear that you are doing okay but I want the truth. Dear, your eyes are bad at lying, you should […]


How the hell do you tell someone that you have no desire to live? How to say that without having them feel shit in return? Listen here, whoever you are. Sympathy. i do not need pity. is there anyone who would understand? here, i am telling you. i do not want to live. i have […]

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