Just because a guy is older, it doesn’t mean he’s ready for anything serious. Why do I say this? Well He was 28 and everything I dreamed of. Financially he was not stable. He spent his early years playing around. Postponing his studies to pursue something that was just a hobby. A hobby […]
My make believe safe space
I needed to get there. Let’s try it again one more time. Closed my eyes. Pitch black. —————————————————————— Where was I? Let’s see. A bench. Okay I know this place. I sat on the bench and almost instantly, there she was. White shirt tucked in high waisted jeans, glasses, wet hair, out of nowhere, walking […]
Benci lebih bijak berbicara
Apabila maaf diungkapkan Maaf juga turut keliru seperti aku Apabila cinta diucapkan Cinta tidak tahu apa yang berlaku Dan apabila rindu asyik menjelma Rindu kurang mengerti tentang kewujudannya Suka yang telah datang kian lamanya Kini persoalkan kembali kehadirannya Lalu aku toleh ke arah benci Benci tak henti henti berkata Seribu satu alasan diberi Sehingga aku […]
Congratulations
Congratulations. Today’s your graduation day. I remember wanting to be a part of that day. Your day. Just as you were a part of my day. Thank you for being there during that time. I wish I could congratulate you. But it’s okay. I don’t miss you. I miss the times we were together. […]
If
If that thing happen again I will go I will not look back You will miss my laugh You will miss my stupid joke You will miss my touch You will miss how I really care about you You will miss how I treat you You will miss how I protect you You will miss […]
Of another panic attack – 8Oct19
To be honest, I don’t know anymore. What to call it. Anxiety? Panic? Was I thinking too much? Am I getting crazy? I cant feel my leg yesterday. After tryna gasping for air so hard, I didn’t feel my leg. I panic and make it even worst. I don’t feel my hands too. And […]
Dear Precious
Dear Precious Hey. Been days since you cut me off from everything isn’t it? I don’t know what the reason though. I mean, i know we said good bye and everything but i never thought you’d cut off me like completely. Because you said you won’t. And here I am thinking what went wrong, that […]
“Do you believe in Miracle?
When you are sad and tired from all the chaos, instead of saying “stay strong” I will ask “do you believe in miracle?” I do believe in miracle. When all hope is gone, there is always miracle that will come to you. Miracle can be a person that come to your life. They will make […]
Love Yourself
In this weary world, while we all are struggling to love ourselves. I promise that I will love you always. Even during the days that you cannot find reasons to love yourself. Even during the days that all you do is to disappear because you just don’t have any strength to carry on. I promise […]
As long we are together
Even the whole world against us, we should not surrender to them. Being together with you, Even the storm and hurricane is not as scary as when I am alone. They do not understand us, the things we go through to stay together. I would not let go of your hand because my mom said […]
「Letter」Bestest of Friends
You know, I’m quite disheartened actually that day. When you invited me to your open house. Okay, it was a pleasure and delightful that you invited me to your house of course but it’s like you’re not so into me. When I first reach your house you were with your friends that I knew nothing […]
A Wake Up Call
I’m tracing every single feature that you choose to share with me with my own hands. Your rich tanned skin bland perfectly with the darkness of the early morning air. But still, that doesn’t stop me from adoring you while your eyes lay shut peacefully in the wake of my normal routine. Your supple lips […]
Discovering her
I can’t stop thinking about her. Or maybe the idea of her. Discovering her feels like discovering me. Only that she looks way better than me. I love her thoughts & composure on life. I wonder how she talks, smiles & laughs. I’m dreaming again. Should I stop dreaming? Or should I say hi to […]
A proud friend of yours;
I was there during the moment you were at the lowest wheel of your life. But you never give up. You know that determination is the most right key to be the best version of yourself. Watching you raised bags of trophies, winning triathlons you entered made me proud and prouder. Although you told me […]
Coffee Life
I always try to find a place for me to fit in but there are none for me or maybe I didn’t find it yet. I honestly think I don’t have a place called home. I wish I have it so I can be happy and ease whenever I been there. I wish I had […]