I’ve been staring blankly at this site for hours.
Not writing, not reading.
Wanting to write, but not knowing how to put these thoughts to words.
The hate, the pain.
You make me feel so worthless. So replaceable.
I was broken when I met you. Broken, but mendable.
But you changed that.
Now I’m shattered beyond repair.
All you left me with is my pride.
All you left me with is my ego.
So yes. I agree with you.
I am egotistical.
I am now, anyway.
I am prideful.
You made me that way.
And I don’t know how to be the person I used to be.
I don’t know how to be the person that loved wholeheartedly anymore.
I don’t remember who I used to be.
And it’s your fault.
Right now, somebody wants to start anew with me.
Somebody wants my heart.
But how can I give them something that’s so shattered?
How can I trust them with the pieces I couldn’t even trust you with?
My ego was bruised beyond repair when you replaced me in a blink of an eye.
My pride was crushed seeing how openly affectionate you are with your new bo.
You were never openly affectionate with me. Not like that.
Guess it’s true that when you’re really in love, your actions will show.
Now this new person that wants to start new with me,
this new person is getting a washed up, broken, ugly me
And it is all thanks to you.
Or maybe not.
I should just restrain from ever giving away my heart to anyone.
Nobody can be trusted these days.
They’ll hurt you and forget about you in an instant.
We’ll always have to take care of ourselves. and only ourselves. nobody else.
So thanks for making me realise my worth in the eyes of the public.
Thank you for making me realise you can’t rely on anyone when it comes to the matter of the heart .
Thank you for making me realise how replaceable I am.
And thank you for turning me in to the person I am today.
I pray the best for you and your partner’s future.